So I see the world from another point of view. When I left the city to come to the desert I was not living. I was alive, but not living… And now that I’ve gone back to the city, now that I have life and purpose, the entire place looks different. Feels different. The buzz of people all around me. It seems as though it’s alive too, as though it has a heartbeat of its own. The world is a different place. People mean so much more. So many people, so many lives, so many souls….
Compassion has reached a new height. A new level. Every single person in that huge city, and every other city, is walking their own journey. They’re all on their own paths, learning new lessons every single second… Maybe their addictions are different to mine, maybe their issues aren’t as complicated as I have made mine, but they too have difficulties, and they too have made mistakes. We’re all on a journey. A personal, unique journey to discover who we really are, and what we’re really here for.
Personally, I have discovered that I have a lot to learn about who I am. I thought that I had figured out, basically, what I need, or what’s important to me. But, going to the big city and seeing things from the other side of the fence has opened my eyes to the fact that I still have so much to learn. I don’t like to make things complicated, but to keep things simple, in a complicated world, takes hard work, focus and commitment. My priorities remain the same, but with added complexities of having to cope with normal everyday facts of life. Rent. Food. Cooking. Alarms. Get to work on time. Fight the traffic. Work work work. Fight the traffic again. Cook. Clean. Rest. Recreation. All the things that should be normal. All the things you tend to avoid while you’re using. All the things that are basic. And necessary.
While watching all of this, and rearranging it all in my mind, I come to the conclusion, that no matter what life throws at you, that no matter how complicated the world seems, the basic focal point of my life is to remain grateful. Just grateful. For life, for every single thing I have in my life. For every single person I have in my life. For every relationship. For love. For grace. For second chances, and lessons. For all the little things that I thought meant nothing, but actually mean everything. Just remain grateful.
I know where I’ve been and what I’ve come from. I saw those very streets that I walked over and over again. I know what I’ve lost. I know what I have gained. Many mistakes have been made. And still many more are to come. But I know that I am loved unconditionally, no matter what, and for this, I am most grateful!!
My journey remains an adventure! Everyday a new lesson. A clearer understanding. Closer and closer to understanding me, and what I was created for….
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